under pressure Sunday, November 16, 2008 1:51 AM

Firstly i wanna say hie to my friends!.
i miss u guys alots!!
its like i never updates such for a very long time.
due to workings..tiredness..and enjoying my life..till i forgot to update my bloggies.
Recently till yesterday alot have happen to me.
For alot of mistake i have done.
too stressed about it tht i have to do something which is so stupid.
1stly. i just got to know this friend of mine.
which i known him since i was 15 years..but we lost contact after tht.
than i met him at Tagged. well tht was surprising coz. i dun really remember well now.
who was my 4 yrs friends tht i have made friends with. heehs.
so as i was saying. this friend of mine. named Mizi.
which he is nineteen now..same as my age.
strt to contact with me thru sms..yey he sms me first.
i too have his no. but u guys noe hu i am.
the laziest person on earth to sms people. heehs.
yey we sms- sms till night. which i notice i forgot tht i have already had a bf.
its like..i fall in love with this friend of mine. which is i know its freaking WRONG!!
Tht sometimes i hate myself!! for doing this!!! i do too know its not fair for Edy.
But recently..i dun really interact tht well with edy. for he is more attached to his friend.
so i just kept sms-ing with mizi. for a few weeks or days. and i feel tht i get more attached to mizi as days go pass.. and i felt so guilty for ignoring Edy all this while. Fuck as i wrote this i hate my self alot.
so what happen is yesterday..Edy read my sms with mizi.
and it turns out bad.. really bad. tht we fought.
biggest fight i ever had with him.
and tht when we confess everything. we talk.
but we didnt break up okay..
break up doesnt settle everything.
like those under age kids out there.
people know, the world know tht
i always love edy since the first day i met him.
and i wont even give my 3 yrs of relationship.
with any guys that i just met.
coz they ARE NOT WORTH IT TO GET WHAT THEY WANT!
and now we love each other more thn the first day i met him.
things can get so silly, but dun ever forget on what u really want.
To mizi..im so sorry aites
To zull ...im sorry too coz we left u like a lamp-post @ memo.:P
to Edy im sorry coz i really make u sad everyday. and i didnt meant to it again..
urghs fuck tub life i got here..
im such a Bitch..doink!!!

lily cyrus-